I've got this little thing
that I've learned to do lately.
When it gets so bad...
and I think I can't go on...
I try to make it worse.
I make myself think about our camp
on the river...
and the first time
that you took me flying.
How good it all was.
And when I'm certain
that I can't stand it...
I go one moment more.
And then I know
I can bear anything.
"I've got this little thing that I'v learned to do lately. When it gets so bad, and I think I, I can't go on, I try to make it worse. I make myself think about our camp on the river, and Berkeley, and the first time that you took me flying. How good it all was. And when I am certain that I can't stand it, I go one moment more, and then I know I can bear anything."
To my Chris,
才发现又一个爱自虐的人-Karen。曾经的快乐有多少，痛苦便是双倍的。然而Karen缓缓的开头：I've got this little thing...lately，松松的瞥了Daniel一眼，你看不出她有任何的心伤亦或怨气。这一刻，我感到和Baroness的心意相通。无论曾经的快乐，或是当下的痛苦，都是生命真正的原味。Just take it, and be grateful.
I've been thinking how possibly to tell you how much you mean to me.
I remember when I first started to fall in love with you, like it was last night.
Lying naked beside you in that tiny apartment.
It suddenly hit me that I was part of this whole larger thing.
Just like our parents. And parents' parents.
Before that I was just living my life like I knew everything.
And suddenly this bright light hit me and woke me up.
That light was you.
I can't believe it's really been 50 years since you married me.
And still to this day, every day, you make me feel like the girl I was when you fist turned on the light and woke me up, and we started this adventure together.
Happy Anniversary, my love my friend till the end.
I miss you so much, it hurts my whole body.
The world is being unfair to us. The world is on my shitlist.
As this couple that is making out across to me in this restaurant.
I think I'm going to have to go on a mission of revenge.
And I must beat up the world's face with my bare knuckles, making it into a bloody pulp mess.
And I'll stop on this couple's teeth reminding me of your sweet little cute crooked tooth that I love.
Will you always come home with me and tell me about your day?
Tell me about the guy at work who talked too much.
The stain you got on your shirt at lunch.
Tell me about a funny thought you have when you are waking up but you've forgotten about.
Tell me how crazy everyone is.
We can laugh about it.
And if you get home late and I'm already asleep,just whisper in my ear one little thought you had today.
Because I love the way you look at the world.
I'm so happy I get to be next to you and look at the world through your eyes.
I am sitting here, thinking about all the things I wanted to apologize to you for.
All the pain we caused each other.
Everything I put on you.
Everything I needed you to be,or needed you to say.
Sorry for that.
I'll always love you cause we grew up together.
And you helped make me who I am.
I just wanted you to know, there'll be a piece of you in me always.
And I am grateful for that.
Whatever someone you become, and wherever you are in the world, I am sending you love.
You are my friend till the end.